RESILIENCY
When I began this post, I initially began to research resilience definitions and what articles considered to be the traits of a resilient person. From there I got stuck. Why repeat what other articles have already pointed out. Is seems redundant somehow. I also received some good feedback from my daughter who noted that although what I have written in some of my posts are good, but, they have been said before. She suggested i speak a little more like who really I am, blunt and passionate. Speak from the heart.
I used to think that living with a chemical imbalance made me unique. though what I have worked with hundreds of clients and I have listened to stories that make some lifetime movies appear docile. Due to confidentiality I can not share those stories here. But the strength and tenacity that some of my client's have displayed in their lives astounds me.
However, what I know best is myself. I could have given up on myself numerous times. Point in fact, I once told a therapist who I was working with after I separated from my daughter's father, that I thought it might be nice to go to a psychiatric hospital to have someone take care of me for once. He laughed (chuckled actually) and informed me that after I worked with him I was going to look back on that statement and laugh (yeah, I did, eventually). I was tired, really tired. It's hard enough to try and survive in a world that demands you pay bills, debts, and have a full time job (or two) in order to do just that. Let's not even discuss having a social or love life. Then throw in a chemical imbalance for fun to mix things up a little.
Yet, here I am nine years later, working a full time job, paying bills (I even caught up on a few debts), and actually enjoying myself sometimes. I can honestly say that I like the person I have become. It took a long time to get there and that's not to say that I won't experience other stumbling blocks in the future. But I have something I like to call resilience.......
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